I miss having time that’s dedicated to making myself happy. I love making him happy don’t get me wrong. But I’ve spent so much time doing that, that I lost everything about myself. I always do the same exact thing in every relationship. I fall hard and stick to them like glue. But I want to change that. I want to read again, and do things with my parents and actually hangout with the friends that for some reason are always there for me. I guess it’s time for a reality check. I’m never going to be happy if I’m constantly worrying about making him happy. So now it’s time to focus on getting my own independence back because if something happens and him and I end, then what will be left of me? A girl that’s been broke for the third time. I don’t want that. I want to be happy no matter what. It’s not selfish. It’s how everyone in my opinion should be. Your own happiness should come first, if you’re happy so will everyone close to you. It’s a win, win situation.
